Praise to my father, My Creator!!!

I have been feeling so stressed out because we have no transportation as of a while ago, I'm talking weeks!!!! All because my brother in law doesn't know how to NOT TEXT while driving and he also seems not to be able to take care of cars!!! But I thought to myself and prayed and God told me my mantra, he said "you are fearfully and wonderfully made" my daughter, and I believe Him!!! I am just that, fearfully and wonderfully made!!! I have no reason to worry, I was talking to my aunt about how my parents are stubborn and refuse any help from me!!! And my aunt said that I never know what people are going through... Just like people don't know what I went through and I know that God has a big purpose in my life, to either speak to young people who are going through what I went through, I have been through the fire and I felt like I might turn to ash but God had other plans for my life!!! If only people would understand what I have gone through... They would really know why I act a certain way...  I just pray that God opens the eyes and hearts of the people who treated me wrong and helps them turn their lives around... I don't want to be a bitter and doubtful person who questions everything!!! I want to be trusting again... And only God can do that in my life!!! But everyday, tell yourself, "I am fearfully and wonderfully made"!!! Say it with confidence and boldness in God!!! I had forgotten about it and God had to put me in check today, worry not daughter or son, he is with you always!!!

Sick of it!!!

I'm sick of this crap!!! I eat and then my mom offers me something and then my dad comes in the kitchen and gets mad at me for eating "again" I only accepted because my Mom doesn't really offer me food in the mornings and then here comes my "dad" getting mad at me!!! I didn't do anything to him, why is he so angry at me Today???

Victorious!!!

I am the victor of my body!!! I was having difficulty going to the restroom, but today I did it!!! I am so proud of myself... 😁 Usually when I can't go, I get sopausatories for myself to help with the go... But I didn't have to today!!! Thank you Jesus!!! Like I said, I am the victor of my body!!! And I have God to thank for that!!!

I'm tired!!!

I'm tired of acting like the jealous Ex-girlfriend... I'm tired of being lonely, and single. I know God has someone for me in His time but, can you be quick about it Lord? I'm tired of Facebook and Instagram stalking my Ex and his new girlfriend... I'm tired of living in the past... I'm JUST TIRED!!! God please help me let go of the bad past... And make me New in You!!!

Random thoughts/questions while laying in bed...

What will the future hold for me tomorrow? Will I meet the man God has for me? If a fly is called a fly because that's what it does, then why do we call butterflies butterflies? Are they made of butter? Lol why do you have one hand bigger than the other? How is that?  Why do women have periods and not men? It's only fair... I need to be sleeping, if I go to sleep right now, I can sleep until 7:00am and be ready for church at the park!!! I am so excited and nervous about that park... It's close to my Ex's house... Will him and his new girlfriend be there? Will I feel sad if I see him and his new girl or will I be alright? I wish one of my guy friends would be there if I see my Ex... I don't want to see him and his new girl if I am alone... Must get some sleep and stop worrying so much about things that don't matter anymore!!! Go to sleep Alley... 😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴

Count it all Joy!!!

I have a friend that is going through something as I am going through it. Not the same problem but he thinks that I won't understand what he is going through!!! I have my bad days and good ones too but I try to see the bright side of my situations... People may not know this but I have been through the ringer and back!!! Some of my readers don't know that I had a stroke in 2013, but anyway... Sure, I don't know the situation but, I can try and help... Just like you don't know what I may be going through... Maybe we can help each other out... You decide. Done with my rant now!!!

New realizations...

You know, one morning you wake up and realize that your life has changed beautifully. Some people aren't in your life anymore and you feel great!!! Although, some people that are in your life you want them there because it helps you on your journey with God... Thanks to you my friend, "Pinocchio" lol... You are making me the woman of God that I should be... You encourage me when I'm down, you check me when I'm wrong and you feel for me when I am sad.. Thank you!!!!  Anyway as I was saying, you realize that life isn't always how you want it to turn out... People change, you change for the better. And the bad memories are taken away by God... I have had some bad memories that I would pray for them to be taken away. And God heard my prayers... I also prayed for someone I could count on and to be my friend. God heard that prayer too... So again I say to my Godly friend, thanks!!! To the deceiver of my life, I pray God has mercy on your soul even though you don't believe in him anymore... I pray for you and your new girlfriend everyday... I pray for forgiveness of my hate for you... I realize that it is a waste of time and energy to be mad and hate you... You may wake up one morning and realize that you had a love that was true to you and then you got bored with her and sent her on her way... And that you want it back but then you will see that she is happier without you and try to respect that she is much happier without you. I realize now that my writings are my personal therapy. So I bid you, my readers a good day!!! God bless!!!