I am so sick and tired of being all alone, I get a new boyfriend and I find a way to mess it up for myself!!! I don't understand it!!! I was finally happy with Juan and I let him slip through my fingers all because I thought I was pregnant which I was not! I was late for my period due to stress because of my dad's memorial dinner for his death, damn I wish Juan would have came to my aunt's house that day so we could have talked about the pregnancy situation and tried to make sense of the situation and get clarification. Instead of him crying to his family and not trying to talk it out with me. It just breaks my heart that he would rather cry to his parents and LITTLE SISTERS about OUR relationship rather than talk it out with me and try to resolve the matter with me,not let his sisters get it in his head that I am only trying to trap him in the relationship, I am fine with just being his friend, I don't need to be his baby mama! I'm not that type of person! His family has got me all wrong. I don't need to be his girlfriend or wife, I am content with just being his friend,if need be. I am fine with that! I can live with that! We may not have been "soulmates" and I can learn to live with that, God has someone special in store for me someday! I just know it and I will be patiently waiting for him to be revealed to me!!!
Wednesday, April 17, 2019
Monday, April 1, 2019
Wake me up when September ends
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends