Victorious!!!

I am the victor of my body!!! I was having difficulty going to the restroom, but today I did it!!! I am so proud of myself... 😁 Usually when I can't go, I get sopausatories for myself to help with the go... But I didn't have to today!!! Thank you Jesus!!! Like I said, I am the victor of my body!!! And I have God to thank for that!!!

I'm tired!!!

I'm tired of acting like the jealous Ex-girlfriend... I'm tired of being lonely, and single. I know God has someone for me in His time but, can you be quick about it Lord? I'm tired of Facebook and Instagram stalking my Ex and his new girlfriend... I'm tired of living in the past... I'm JUST TIRED!!! God please help me let go of the bad past... And make me New in You!!!

Random thoughts/questions while laying in bed...

What will the future hold for me tomorrow? Will I meet the man God has for me? If a fly is called a fly because that's what it does, then why do we call butterflies butterflies? Are they made of butter? Lol why do you have one hand bigger than the other? How is that?  Why do women have periods and not men? It's only fair... I need to be sleeping, if I go to sleep right now, I can sleep until 7:00am and be ready for church at the park!!! I am so excited and nervous about that park... It's close to my Ex's house... Will him and his new girlfriend be there? Will I feel sad if I see him and his new girl or will I be alright? I wish one of my guy friends would be there if I see my Ex... I don't want to see him and his new girl if I am alone... Must get some sleep and stop worrying so much about things that don't matter anymore!!! Go to sleep Alley... 😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴

Count it all Joy!!!

I have a friend that is going through something as I am going through it. Not the same problem but he thinks that I won't understand what he is going through!!! I have my bad days and good ones too but I try to see the bright side of my situations... People may not know this but I have been through the ringer and back!!! Some of my readers don't know that I had a stroke in 2013, but anyway... Sure, I don't know the situation but, I can try and help... Just like you don't know what I may be going through... Maybe we can help each other out... You decide. Done with my rant now!!!

New realizations...

You know, one morning you wake up and realize that your life has changed beautifully. Some people aren't in your life anymore and you feel great!!! Although, some people that are in your life you want them there because it helps you on your journey with God... Thanks to you my friend, "Pinocchio" lol... You are making me the woman of God that I should be... You encourage me when I'm down, you check me when I'm wrong and you feel for me when I am sad.. Thank you!!!!  Anyway as I was saying, you realize that life isn't always how you want it to turn out... People change, you change for the better. And the bad memories are taken away by God... I have had some bad memories that I would pray for them to be taken away. And God heard my prayers... I also prayed for someone I could count on and to be my friend. God heard that prayer too... So again I say to my Godly friend, thanks!!! To the deceiver of my life, I pray God has mercy on your soul even though you don't believe in him anymore... I pray for you and your new girlfriend everyday... I pray for forgiveness of my hate for you... I realize that it is a waste of time and energy to be mad and hate you... You may wake up one morning and realize that you had a love that was true to you and then you got bored with her and sent her on her way... And that you want it back but then you will see that she is happier without you and try to respect that she is much happier without you. I realize now that my writings are my personal therapy. So I bid you, my readers a good day!!! God bless!!!

I'm only human...

I am only human and I can't change my past or write my future, God had it all written out for me and I wouldn't trade it for the world... I have lied, cheated and sinned...  Lord knows that I'm not perfect.  I AM ONLY HUMAN!!! I make mistakes and fall many times but God always picks me up and dusts me off... I have fornicated before marriage and regret it but, don't regret it... I was tricked into it. (Well, I let myself get tricked into it.) I may fall but God picks me up off the floor and I'm greatful for that!!! Thank you Jesus!!!

If i had listened to my mother...

You know those times where you wish that your mom would just be quiet and let you live your life?  Well, I had that moment a couple of years ago and I should have listened... My mom was right about the guy I was dating (I hate that ) he didn't love God, or me... he would go far away to "work" and I would have my doubts about it... and my mom always told me  "make sure he isn't cheating on you" which, I was a fool to think that I knew everything about him and I knew deep in my heart that something just wasn't right about our relationship...  but I brushed it off and ignored the heedings of my mom, and now I am single for the moment and he is in another relationship... ( with a hippe hobo with dreadlocks and is white like him.) and I am glad to be single again and wait for the man that God has prepared for me in the future...  and yes, my mom can say "I told you so" now... I'm sorry mom!!!