By God

Yesterday at church it came to my attention that alot of statistics were against me.... I should have been rebellious to the point of turning to gangs, I should have been having sex and doing alot of bad things.... But by the Grace of God I am here and have not joined a gang, and have saved myself for marriage...

There have been alot of things that have gone on in my life that, yes I am not proud of but I realize that I had to go through it for a reason... It was a part of Gods plan for my life... I know that I have left alot of mystery to what I am writing but its only because I dont feel like my story is ready yet...

I am glad that God kept me even through the hardest of times and kept me from being another teenage statistic. If it had not been for God, where would I be??? I have thought about this quite a bit. I may have been in a gang hurting people and doing some very horrible things. I was a very intimidating (looking) person. One reason is because at the time of my early teen years, I was very big and very tall. (Now I must say i am a mere 5'3 and some girls that are much younger than me are taller and look older-LOL)

I could have been having sex with multiple people and possibly been having children left and right... One thing i was always told, even before going to church, was that I was to wait for marriage (one thing my mom instilled in me). But with all the temptations in life, I could have simply just had sex. BY God and by my own self, I have held on to my precious gift. One day I will find my God-send and that will be a special thing between us, but as of now my purity is in tact.

I wrote all of this which may seem pointless to some or confusing to others, just to say that had it not been for God and the many good people in my life encouraging me to do whats right. I am glad to be in Gods presence and to be another person who fought the stereo-type and statistics! One day I will write my life story but as of now, this is all I can share. But all in all, Thank You JESUS!!!!