I just gave up?!?!?!?!

It was brought to my attention last night and today that i have just given up on myself. I guess it is true, ever since my family and I became "homeless last year and ended up staying in a motel for a few months, I just think that in my mind I figured, "what's the point of trying anymore?, I'm single, nobody wants to date me and I am going to end up alone so why even try, I just gave up!!! I have gone weeks without washing my hair and shaving my legs... It's not like I have to stay cute for anyone anymore... My mom was helping me brush out my hair this morning and it hurt like heck, I mean yeah, I showered every other day when I was living with my Ex boyfriend and his parents. I kept myself beautiful and sexy smelling everyday. I just gave it my all and nobody cared but me!!! I put on makeup almost everyday and I felt sexy for it, I kept myself hot and sexy and my hair was short but manageable... I had it going on, when my Ex was out of town "working" Guy friends would be texting me and trying to talk to me and get me to go out with them but I had to refuse them because I had a boyfriend at the time...
To call my own. I was so stressed out about that, that I felt like I was going  thave another stroke or maybe I was having a panic attack that felt like I was going, have nobody to call my own, but now, I am overjoyed with peace and love with the love of the Lord!!! I don't know what I would do without his loving mercy that is new every morning!!!