Going to therapy?!?!?!

I am going to therapy Thursday and I don't know how it is going to go , I am so nervous to see how her reaction is going to be with seeing me again after all this time!!! I don't know what to do with myself! I can't wait to update her on all that has happened since the last time I had seen her! My dad passed away and then I got a boyfriend,as I was dating my said boyfriend I was losing weight and then we broke up because I thought I was pregnant so in able to not get hurt bad, I broke up with him first, but in the end I ended up getting hurt more worst because I figured we were soulmates and I can't live without him and while we were dating I ordered him a beanie and a necklace that mentioned something about soulmates and I turned into a downward spiral and started to think about self harm and after I got over that I started eating my feelings. I don't know what to tell her to help my situation! I can't go to sleep and wake up skinny overnight! I wish it were that easy but it's not!!!

Annoyed

My mother is back to her old habit AGAIN,HOARDING!!! And I just can't seem to have her break this old habit, it scares me and annoys me at the same time, I don't know how to shake her out of it! The last person to shake her out of it was my Dad (may he rest in peace) and I don't think I am strong minded like him to do it! Lord help me not to go crazy with being annoyed with my mother about her Hoarding and bless me with the wisdom to understand why she feels the need to hoard. In your mighty NAME 😇 🙌 🙏! AND being a MEAN PERSON I never thought that she would be like this to ME!!! I'm her oldest daughter, I didn't get married the first chance I had to a guy I barely knew from Facebook! I'm looking for my man of God😇 🙌!!! Unlike my sister, she just seen an opportunity to get out of the house and took it... But why punish me for my sisters choice? That's why I'm ANNOYED!!!