Count it all Joy!!!

I have a friend that is going through something as I am going through it. Not the same problem but he thinks that I won't understand what he is going through!!! I have my bad days and good ones too but I try to see the bright side of my situations... People may not know this but I have been through the ringer and back!!! Some of my readers don't know that I had a stroke in 2013, but anyway... Sure, I don't know the situation but, I can try and help... Just like you don't know what I may be going through... Maybe we can help each other out... You decide. Done with my rant now!!!

New realizations...

You know, one morning you wake up and realize that your life has changed beautifully. Some people aren't in your life anymore and you feel great!!! Although, some people that are in your life you want them there because it helps you on your journey with God... Thanks to you my friend, "Pinocchio" lol... You are making me the woman of God that I should be... You encourage me when I'm down, you check me when I'm wrong and you feel for me when I am sad.. Thank you!!!!  Anyway as I was saying, you realize that life isn't always how you want it to turn out... People change, you change for the better. And the bad memories are taken away by God... I have had some bad memories that I would pray for them to be taken away. And God heard my prayers... I also prayed for someone I could count on and to be my friend. God heard that prayer too... So again I say to my Godly friend, thanks!!! To the deceiver of my life, I pray God has mercy on your soul even though you don't believe in him anymore... I pray for you and your new girlfriend everyday... I pray for forgiveness of my hate for you... I realize that it is a waste of time and energy to be mad and hate you... You may wake up one morning and realize that you had a love that was true to you and then you got bored with her and sent her on her way... And that you want it back but then you will see that she is happier without you and try to respect that she is much happier without you. I realize now that my writings are my personal therapy. So I bid you, my readers a good day!!! God bless!!!

I'm only human...

I am only human and I can't change my past or write my future, God had it all written out for me and I wouldn't trade it for the world... I have lied, cheated and sinned...  Lord knows that I'm not perfect.  I AM ONLY HUMAN!!! I make mistakes and fall many times but God always picks me up and dusts me off... I have fornicated before marriage and regret it but, don't regret it... I was tricked into it. (Well, I let myself get tricked into it.) I may fall but God picks me up off the floor and I'm greatful for that!!! Thank you Jesus!!!

If i had listened to my mother...

You know those times where you wish that your mom would just be quiet and let you live your life?  Well, I had that moment a couple of years ago and I should have listened... My mom was right about the guy I was dating (I hate that ) he didn't love God, or me... he would go far away to "work" and I would have my doubts about it... and my mom always told me  "make sure he isn't cheating on you" which, I was a fool to think that I knew everything about him and I knew deep in my heart that something just wasn't right about our relationship...  but I brushed it off and ignored the heedings of my mom, and now I am single for the moment and he is in another relationship... ( with a hippe hobo with dreadlocks and is white like him.) and I am glad to be single again and wait for the man that God has prepared for me in the future...  and yes, my mom can say "I told you so" now... I'm sorry mom!!!

My proverb for today

"Build a man a fire, he's warm for a day/night... Light a man on fire and he's warm for the rest of his life..." Burn baby burn...

I lied....

In the post titled By God, I said I was saving myself for marriage but, I did not!!!! Last year when my boyfriend got home from being in the woods, I lost my virginity.... Im not saying that everyone should go do "it" because I'm not saying that, however, I don't regret what I did... Not for a millisecond.... I'm happy with my choice and would not turn back the hands of time.... No sir-e-bob!!!! I'm just trying to say that I would not change it for anything in the world!!!! But I am saying that you should save yourself for the man that loves God then You!!!

We All Have A Story To Tell

I have always been a big believer in love and happiness... But on the contrary, I never believed I would ever be in love or happy.... I let other peoples problems and situations scare me away from finding true love and happiness.... I dated guys who I knew would never match up to me so that way it would end.... I looked for things about them that would permit me to dump them because it was a bad habit or just plainly annoying.... I didn't realize I was doing this until now....

But on a Nice warm August day (7-7-11), that all changed.... I met a deceiver... He made me feel like I was the only one... 

Now, dont get me wrong...  I wasnt always depressed and dark but I was close to it... He just made me believe in true love.... I fell more and more in love with him each day. I know God is supposed to be my first love and he is but in person to person meaning he was my one and only... I know, I know, I'm making it sound like we are a fairytale couple, which we are not. We were making our own "fairytale". However, we are like every other couple who has their disagreement and fights but what is love without a little war? 

Right now he was gone miles away for work but I feel like our bond is growing stronger. I guess absence does make the heart grow fonder... You might think I'm crazy for saying this but Mike was my life... What I mean by that is that I couldnt see my future with anyone before and now I cant see my future without him.... We have both agreed on forever, which if you knew me a year ago, I would Never agree to it. But like I say, love makes you do crazy things...

I know I seem so confident in all this but dont get me wrong, I am scared to death. This is a new territory for me, I have never been in love before. (Except for God) I have never put my faith in anyone other than God. So taking this step of faith with Mike was new and exciting and scary all at the same time... But Im glad I took that new step in life with him. And I am really glad and relieved that he can deal with my crazy self.

Let me render a little thought, its just an itty bitty thing on my mind.... About a boy and a girl trying to take on the world, one kiss at a time. Now the funny thing about it is that the story is mine and I hope i can say that it ends up just fine. We all want to know how it ends. Happily ever after is how i would like it to end, and so far it appears that way. Im not saying its was going to be cinderella perfect but it will be alley and mike perfect... We are just a boy and a girl who want to take on the world and we want to get caught happy and in love... We were giving it a shot and taking a big leap of idk what what to call it... And I see it going good!!!

We have a story to tell.... Wether we want to or not, of love and all its glory. Not one person is excluded, we ALL have a story to tell... The only question people ask is "Do I end up happy?" People should ask what they can do to improve their happiness.... Life isnt about finding happiness, its about making the best of what you have and when it comes to love, he had helped me do that indeed...

In all of this, I can only hope that I have friends and family who were happy for mike and I and cheering us on. But that part of the story is yet to be played out... We shall see.... But on the other side of things, It doesnt matter if you agree with us and our love, this was how it was meant to play out. We were just attempting to head into our Happily Ever After....