Sent from Heaven

I'm sitting here writing, just waiting for the love of my life, my destiny, to reply back to me!!! I have just told him a big secret that has been haunting me for years and he is so understanding and sweet about it!!! I don't know what I did to deserve or be blessed with that man!!! I am so lucky to have him in my life!!! ❤️ I have been in love with him since I was 9 1/2 years old and that love has not burned out since!!! I am so glad that we can take things slow and just be friends and enjoy each others company and joke around like we are buddies and just enjoy our time together. I love it!!! He just completes me!!! We have been dating for over a month now and I couldn't be happier!!! I love having sex with him! He knows how to get the right spot and make me orgasm multiple times!!! I have orgasmed multiple times since we have started having sex and I don't want to stop!!! Each time we have sex, I cum!!! MULTIPLE TIMES!!! I LOVE IT 💜 ❣️

I'm just tired

I'm just tired of my sister telling my mom and I that we are going to be babysitting the kids next weekend without even asking if it's alright if she even drops the kids off next weekend not even asking if we have plans that weekend because, WE DO!!! First,we have my aunt's birthday party Saturday night and then we have my boyfriend's birthday breakfast the Sunday morning because I'm totally infatuated with him, I have been addicted to him since I was 9 1/2 years old and have been stalking him ever since. But back to my point, my sister has no courtesy for our lives. She thinks we have no lives of our own but considering I have a boyfriend now I won't have time to deal with her and her husbands families shit anymore... I have my own stuff to deal with and I couldn't be any more happier... However my mom is a big pushover and doesn't kn no to say no to my LITTLE SISTER!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!   If I were to have some kids my mom would have no problem telling me no that she couldn't watch my kids and she would say shit to my face but, no she is afraid of my little sister!!! I would tell my sister to fuck off and find another family member to babysit. I'm no pushover!!! I love my sister but the kids drive me nuts!!!

I'm just so tired...

I am so tired of being in Hollister. I just want to be at home in my bed 😔! I'm so upset right now and I can't do anything about it! I just want to scream!!! I can't because I am stuck here with my sister and her family. And to top it off, it's RAINING!!! My sister has the air conditioner on in the room because she claims that it gets stuffy in there. No, your kids get stuffy noses because you have the air conditioner on ALL YEAR LONG!!! SERIOUSLY! I love my sister but she just gets on my nerves sometimes... And I am tired of it!!! And to top it off, I want to go to bed early tonight so we can get home early enough for me to not lose my shit!!!

Meant to be?!?!?!?!

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Just another day

You hear people talking about you but it's just another day.
You see people cutting in line and others get upset, you say nothing but it's just another day.  So in closing I say to you... Don't be so serious because, it's just another day!!!

Waiting....

It was brought to my attention that a guy I used to date that got married and has a son and 2 step children and is divorced has no intention on speaking to me because of his "kids" and I am so tired of it," I miss the old days where I used to date him and he didn't have kids and he had free time And time for me and us!!! Where we could just jump in the car and drive anywhere. No worries. ❤💕  Those were the days!!!❤ I just miss us before all the responsibility of life jumped at us and bit us in the butt!!! I just wish time would go back!

I just gave up?!?!?!?!

It was brought to my attention last night and today that i have just given up on myself. I guess it is true, ever since my family and I became "homeless last year and ended up staying in a motel for a few months, I just think that in my mind I figured, "what's the point of trying anymore?, I'm single, nobody wants to date me and I am going to end up alone so why even try, I just gave up!!! I have gone weeks without washing my hair and shaving my legs... It's not like I have to stay cute for anyone anymore... My mom was helping me brush out my hair this morning and it hurt like heck, I mean yeah, I showered every other day when I was living with my Ex boyfriend and his parents. I kept myself beautiful and sexy smelling everyday. I just gave it my all and nobody cared but me!!! I put on makeup almost everyday and I felt sexy for it, I kept myself hot and sexy and my hair was short but manageable... I had it going on, when my Ex was out of town "working" Guy friends would be texting me and trying to talk to me and get me to go out with them but I had to refuse them because I had a boyfriend at the time...
To call my own. I was so stressed out about that, that I felt like I was going  thave another stroke or maybe I was having a panic attack that felt like I was going, have nobody to call my own, but now, I am overjoyed with peace and love with the love of the Lord!!! I don't know what I would do without his loving mercy that is new every morning!!!